lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
lovedd.<3
but to you.I LOVE YOU.always.
;12:17 AM.x
20050923
gosh it hurts man.
slept frm like 12pm- 2pm.
after that wanted to go home
but decided to go for hmt instead.
well.
exams coming soon.
realli have to study extra hard man.
and i wanna PASS ENGLISH.
i dun wanna be expelled frm sch.
shit man.
im like so scared.
damn.
i dunno la.
hope that end of years wun b that tough ba.
aniwaes.
i dunno what to sae le.
oh one more thing.
this is specially for my dearest DADDY.
I LOVE YOU ALOT DADDY.
even though i miss mummy. . . i still miss you too.
dun merajuk le la.
-sends u flying kisses-
;10:10 PM.x
20050918
hope u love the treat.
went to school for geog on sat.
decided to pon amaths and went out to eat with becky instead.
went to eat at mobil.
went to westmall lib and read some books.
then went home.
oh did i mention?
becky looks chio in her frindster pic.
the chatting one.
haha.
im gonna cut my hair with my 2 bestties tmr.
im sick of everything that happen.
been sick the past few days too.
have no idea y.
ate some food at aunts house on friday
and felt like throwing up barely a minute after that.
on sat after i went home.
i felt sick all over i couldn get out of bed.
forced myself out to my relatives house.
havent been well today.
my head still hurts.
but i dun care.
like uhm who ever cares.
what use to be a secret is not a secret anymore.
Y CANT THEY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
i need my privacy.
i need my own space.
and its not for irritating species from outer space like all of you to intrude.
just GO AWAY FROM ME!
just leave me alone.
ive nothing else to write.
;10:05 PM.x
she never thank me for things ive done for her
instead she accuse of being insincere
she buys things for them readily
but never did she do that for me
she fulfils their every request
but not mine
even if she does
she does it with much anger
[he]
he bought for them presents
on their birthdays
but never in the years i lived have i remembered
of him buying me anything
when i do well for my exams
he never do care
he takes notice of my every mistakes but never theirs
he apologises everytime he's too harsh with her
but leave me alone whenever i cry out of fear
[they]
they are younger than me
they never did really treat me as what they are suppose to.
im blamed for the mistakes they do
"u set the example.they follow."
im sick of hearing this.
sometimes i wonder if all of them really care.
really care about me
the tears ive shed
she never took notice
the things i do to please them
is never enough
kisses, hugs from both of you?
never have i ever felt them
not even the slightest closeness
am i that insignificant in your lives?
im so sick of being with all of them
having to live each and everyday of my life
in a place that suffocates me
is this what they call home?
is this MY home?
i guess at the end of the day
ill still love all of them.
i still HAVE to.
whether being forced or not.
;9:30 PM.x
20050904
and the rivers run into the sea
till the end of time forever
ure the only love i need
in my life ure all that matters
in my eyes the only truth i see.
when my hopes and dreams are shattered.
ure the one who sees me through.
when i found you i was blessed
ill never leave you i need you
imagine me without you
i'd be lost and so confused
i woudnt last a day
id be afraid without you there to see me through.
imagine me without you
lord u know its just impossible.
because of you its all brand new
my lfe is now worthwhile
imagine me without you.
when u caught me i was falling
your love lifted me back onto my feet
it was like u heard my calling
and u rise to set me free
when i found you i was blessed
ill never leave you i need you
imagine me without you
i'd be lost and so confused
i woudnt last a day
id be afraid without you there to see me through.
imagine me without you
lord u know its just impossible.
because of you its all brand new
my lfe is now worthwhile
imagine me without you.iloveyou.thanksforbeingthereformealways.ureminenowandforever.ulightupmylife.ureallthatmatters now.nothingcanseparatemefromyouanymore.illholdontoyou.illneverletgo.illneverleaveyou.promisemeuwunleavemetoo?
;11:14 PM.x
firstly WELCOME BACK JEAN!
was like waiting for her on friday at 1005.
and she onli came at like 1020.
but anw yeah.
glad that she's back.
well.
ytd was unit-hike.
screwd up the time.
was like 30 minutes ahead of time.
but well.
still ended on time.a lil early.
but not too early ba.
i realise how diff it is too give instructions to like 40++ using own voice.
becks wanted to push me into the pond and was suggesting it to sum of the sec2s too!
hilarious.
but well i still survived.
u love me too much becks!
i think the duck walk was funnayy,
but had to cut it short.
and pt kept telling me abt her island.
and her house that can b seen from the bridge.
heh.
dumb woman.
but wells.
the whole outing was fun.
EXCEPT for sum part ba.
elaboration not needed.
after that went town.
ate at lj w pt and becks.
trees jean and yakks were eating at yoshi.
i cannot eat there ma
dun dare.
had a fun time eating.
i think im crazy.
was like waiting for pt to finish eating for ard 1hr.
darn long.
and becks got ashes in her food.
luckily it can still be eaten.
then took neo prints.
walked ard in heeren.
got scolded twice by the security.
#1-for sitting down in hmv and blocking others which i apparently did not.was just tying my shoelace la.IDIOT.
#2-while trying to pics with becky in HMV TOO!screw that security guard man.cant even take pics meh?y?jealous that i din take pic with u izzit?
after that sent jean to ps .
figured that i wasn invited.
so left with becks and join trees yakks pt in the arcade.
lalala.then went home to join relatives at bbq.
MORE FUN MANN!
had alot of food but din eat much.
talked on the phone alot!
slept over at aunts place.
wanted to like play with my sis and cousin.
but i ended up falling asleep first.
was too tired.
i dunno wad to write le.heh.
byee.
;10:11 PM.x
20050901
ytd teachers day.
HAPPY YEACHERS" DAY!!!!!!!
performance ytd wasn that bad ba.
screw up abit at the beginning.
lost my steps.
heh.
anw.yeah.
after that had np.
whoa was very sleepy by then.
all of us were darn tired.
haha.
and i was panicking cuz my hair still had some white streaks of paint.
then there were like some glitters stuck on my face la.
but yea.
anw.yea.
did tent-pitching ytd.
now hands have blisters.
me and peiting were the wost peggers.
haha.
but we are the best.
cuz we always manage to peg the pegs in!
haha.
HOPELESS and BRAINLESS unite!
haha.
i dunno wad to write le la.
haha.
gtg
byee.
;5:29 PM.x
wishlist
star bracelet.
a new wallet
new pencilbox
new bag.
engraved ring.
*to be with you forever
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respect.x