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20040930

cheated yet again..

[its so cold.. -brrr- ]
went to skool and it was drizzling.well at least i din get wet ba.haha.was a lil' wet onli lar.was practically freezing in class.cant help it if i have the fun above me ryt?and the best thing is..i din bring my windbreaker todae.de. go canteen worst lor.its like the whole place seem to b an iglo to me lor.its chao cold.my hand was going numb.was trying to get windbreakers but they had to wear it for themselve.so endured the whole day feeling cold.and im in the com lab now summore lor.cant even type properly.

[F.Y.E-finally year exams=STREAMING!]
ats like 3 days away.very scared.afraid i might not b able to make it.cuz its like my english is poor.wad if i fail?fail english[in crescent]=expelled from school. how bad can that b ryt?oh no.and my english is always juz pass one lor.i very scared can..so far studied at least a bit of each chapter.todae had 4 periods of maths lor!oh my goodness.nearly died in the class.but was grateful oso that ms lau was there to explain stuff to us lor.or else i tink i wud have died during maths test.

[life=misery.sorrows]
hasn been good i shud say.but im trying not to let it distract me from studying.i have to revised and score well in my FYE.dun wanna regret it in sec3 and sec4.promise i made to myself=im gonna try to do well adn not let stupid stuff bother me. thats my aim...

[you=cheated me.]
y muz [you] lie huh?i dun like [you]..i try not to think of it..but i juz cudn do it.but u shall not bother me..for the time being i shall juz accept it the way it is..ill do stg after FYE..*ilu

well gtg.byee.

lovedd.<3
;1:49 PM.x

20040928

life's a misery

[todae.]
i have ntg much to write todae.had science and CME test todae.and guess wad happen today?i left my safe and secure book in the redhill toilet lor.blehh.im so dumb and stupid lor pls.but i cant b bothered anyway.not gonna use it anymore.well.like ive said i have ntg to write todae.no tags to reply oso ba.so yea.wanna go and do my template...

gtg byee..take care people..

lovedd.<3
;6:22 PM.x

20040927

time really flies man...a broken testube can cut too..

[todae.]
same old thing juz that early in the morn we have2go and do some survey thingy.other than that its the same old lessons and stuff like that lor..yepp.oh and sec4s were wearing working suit todae.some wearing skirts and sum pants.saw sum unexpected things but yea.quite hilarious but nvm..hehe.had quite a bad hair day todae.stg wrong with it.juz semmed so not normal like that..yupyup.fasting again todae.have 4 more days to go.plan to fast the rest of the week depending on my mood la hor.haha.mayb tmr wun b fasting mayb yes.yepp.

[yesterday.]
went to lib yday with sis.after that father bought bone staek.quite nice la actually.but din have any appetite so onli ate one.sumone brought my mood dwn.broke down and cried.went to the toilet cuz afraid parents wud see me crying.in the end i decided to take another shower.was crying while the shower was puring water over my head.thot that after showering i wud stp crying but in the end i cried harder.din help at all.parents was in the living room and sis was in the room.din wan them to see me crying so i locked myself in the toilet.i dun them to come asking me if im alright and stuff like that.its like i will feel very awkward a lil' disgusted.cuz my parents and i werent close since youngs.so it like the bond between us very thin like thread like that lor.sum child like wen their parents do that to them..but not me.i feel very...erps..anw.yea.haven been well this few days either.

[english paper.]
wasn that bad lar.thot that it was gonna b like common test.but the compre was still a killer man.about gender again..but at least this was the first tym i could finish compre within the time limit.if not always have to rush thru summary then will haf sum of the compre question undone.but anyway compre never fail being the murderer of my english paper.

[tests.]
lemme list out the tests i have tmr.i have cme test wich i haven study anything at all and also science test on sound..oso haven study yet lor please.hw to do well?then cme is worst lor.Gam haven been cuming to our lessons lor.den nw hav2study on our own.blehh.tmr oso have mass lit lecture for one hour?boring man.suppose to have history oso but in the end ms neo cancelled it.haha.

[fallen-without-wings.]
here i go again..replying to sumone special's tags.haha.k i was crapping la k?eh nvm for the late reply.its ok lar.ure stuck on stg?hmm..lyk wat?haha.tsk..u ar.wad i was trying to sae is that imagine that its me smiling there?do you think my smile is real or fake?sighh.u arh...anw.so ur firstname is not equal to ur surname...hmm..this is so difficult lor..but anw.yesh of course im smarrt..-ego-..no lar.kidding onli.im juz sum dumb girl still rotting on earth.heh.yays.ill get the special priority of knwing ur firstname..hw cool is that?.hehe.but y me arh?oh..been wanting to ask you dis..y do you tag my board of all people knwing that i might not even know u.i mean y did you decide to tag my board...?hm..wrong meh for me to know wad u tink of me?i juz wanna know.seriously..no other reasons lor.so i am..er..sweet?u sure anot?eh..its freaky cuz...the personal reason that i have in mind isn a pleasant thing..so if youre thinking of the same thing.. wudn it b freaky for me?u understand wad im saying?i bet u dun.haha.yepp.in np theres barrier so yea.hmm..anw.wad do you mean by "wad u thinking ar?" a lil' vague..cant quite understand it.yupp.dunno wad ure referring to.eh..wad is ur prediction?mind telling me?-pheww-thot that theres stg scary about my blog that makes u scream and shout..heh.hm..so this person from np hu is ur fren and also knows me..might not know that ure tagging on my board..by any chance u cud have told her?hehe.hmm..leading to knwing hu u are?haha.but as i hv said i dun dare guess.wud rather u reaveal urself lor.kk i promise.ill tell you once i know hu u are.but i wun b telling u here on my blog cuz its like personal yea?so perhaps i cud like tell u personally or stg?like meeting you..thru hp or mayb even calling.but yea.definitely not here on my blog.here i only write it in general terms.cuz i dun wan others to get hurt..or hav wrong ideas about it.the outcum wun b good if u tell me now?y?izzit thaaaaaat bad?eh..im not freaking u out.i dun hear anything.stg in me juz kept depressing me.i wun do anything foolish for now..i still wanna sit for finals..and talking about foolish things..theres many others that i hv done before.so ya.i will tryt o do well.but no promises.hehe.

kk gtg.

lovedd.<3
;2:04 PM.x

20040923

im so irritated...

[todae.]
dunno y.but i feel so irritated now.a few minutes more i have to go for CIP.last session.arh..finally.cant stand.i dun feel like going todae.i wanna go home and rest.eurghh.im gonna drag my feet dere manx.blehh.omg.i dunno watta write le.ntg happen todae.xcept for feeling very depressed now.in com lab now anw.

[life.]
arh...-!screams- its gonna happen again.after skl todae suddenly feel very down lor.den [guardian angel] cry again.meet her after skl.wanted to console her.but she left even before i could say anything.wanted to tell her that i felt down but since she was down too..i decided that i shud keep it to myself.dun wanna make her more sad and worried.spent the rest of the tym looking down.even a junior realised the change in my face.blehh.well i guess.im not gonna feel good for the rest of the day le.i got no mood de.found out that broken testube is sharp.yepp.not thinking of anything tho.

[fallen-without-wings.]
im here to reply u again...=]<--fake or real...?i dunno either.eh nono..ure not a criminal larhs.u tink too much again.yepp.im sure for ur name ur firstname is not equal to surname ryt?hehe.im smart smart.yeah...soon ill b another soul hu will knw ur firstname izzit?will i get that special priority?kk.describe me.like..erm ugly.dumb.stg like that?yepp.i wanna know wad u think of me.yuppers.cuz if ure frm np.there would be barrier between us lorh.so i doubt u will even tag my board in the first place.unless ure the daring type larh.ur reason is more of the personal side?oh no this is getting more and more freaky.wonder wat that personal reason is man.yepp.i dun suppose ure frm np.and erm.unless u r really from np lorh...y u luff and scream?u scream wen u tag my board?so hilarious meh my blog?or mayb is there anyting scary bout it?hehe.aiya juz enlighten me yea?HUH?!the person hu know me is from np?does she know that ure tagging my board?eh..this is leading me to stg.but i dunno whtr im led to the ryt destination.but i dare not guess.cuz i trust that ull reveal urself soon.i dunno wad the outcum wud b.but i juz have the feeling it wun b good.yepp.aiya.dun bother abt it lar.anw.yepp.so many people ask me drink water one.hm..yepp.alot of thing gg on in my head ryt now.disturbing me.ill tell you once i know hu u are ok?ill gv u a small part of it..it stg that is disturbing and making me feel like dying.like no point of living.yupp.ill tell u more wen i know hu u are le k?yepp.short hair?so many ppl have short hair lor.ur firstname end w leta a?gosh.that clue totalli rule out the possibilties that i have in mind.bleh.kk i gtg now.take care yea.looking forward to knowing u soon.tata~!

gtg liao.im late for cip liao.byee.

lovedd.<3
;3:17 PM.x

20040922

its so cold here..-brrr-

[todae.]
hmm.in the com ryt now.dunno y.but i find it especially cold ryt now.out of a sudden.hmmm.todae fasting again.paying back for last years fast.those who not malay wud not understand wat i mean la.but yea.i still got 5 more days to go.and official fasting month is on 14 oct i think...either 13 or 14.kk naw.got class photos todae.i think...once again i look very ugly.-yucks-i hate taking picture cuz im not photogenic.haha.i dun like this yrs np photo esp.cus i think i look very very ugly in there.worst than class photo.cuz of my unexpected smile.yucks.it looks so ugly.kk enuf about photo.yday watch titanic.i like the show man.so sad.the first tym i watch it i cried.but yday wen i watch it i luffed.cuz i see leonardo shivering makes me luff lor.but the theme song is the one that create the sad atmosphere.hear the song onli can make me cry lor.so slow and touching.i lurve celine dion.but anw..guess wat?my father said he wanted to buy the cd to cure the virus thing a few days before for my home ryt?guess wad he said yday?he said he gonna cut off internet access for my home com.cuz he say no use continuing w the access and paying for it wen i dun even use it.SHIT lor lyk that.i cant survive without com.nearly cried arguing w him lor.eurghh.i wan my com back lor.-sobs-

[you.]
very happy wen i saw u this morning.hope that my talking to you had sumway or rather cheer u up abit hor?i know it may not be enuf but yea.i hope it helps.-smiles-takling to you very fu lor.one of the ways where i can luff.cuz u arh..cant stop luffing de lor.did i ever tell you this?ur lufter is contagious.haha.hear u luff hor can make me luff leh.haha.but at least its better to see you smiling and luffing rather than see you cry.yepp.so dun cry le k?u cry i cry..u luff i luff...yepp.

[exams.]
its around the corner le.in fact english is on friday..which is...the day after tomorrow lor!!!then after one week will be the rest of the subject le.dunno whtr i can make it to sec3.sighh.

[fallen-without-wings.]
special part for you again.whee~!ure the culprit hu tag my board?dun use the word culprit lar.make you sound like someone hu juz did a crime lor.and the fact is...you din commit any crime.yeshyesh.you mean the yearbook dun write students full name meh?hw cum ur firstname wun b dere...stgs fishy...-rubs chin-eh is firstname=surname?haha.im a lil dumb lar hor.and yes i m useless.wad do you think of me?frankly...yepp.y isn this the right tym to reveal?i dunno y i exclude np.but if you r really frm np the i understand y dis is not the ryt tym la.unless ure a sec4.and for sum other personal reasons..i dun tink ure frm np oso.yepp.haha.you smiling at the com is at home ryt?the com i using is skl com.later ppl see me smiling at the com will think im a retard.eh you can describe the shape or the colour of the pin wad.yepp.yes see of course u wud be curious ryt?yepp.omygoodness.this getting more and more..mysterious.this person whom u knw oso knw me??oh goodness.i really wish you wud reveal urself soon.and dun get the suspense going on for too long hor..yepp.i fear the outcum wudn b as nice.thats wad my instinct is telling me.tag on my board is fun??weird leh you.haha.i wun stress myself up de.and yea will drink lotsa water.y so many ppl ask me drink water?hmpf.i never faint before.wud like to faint one day.wanna knw hw it feels like.heh.eh..got animore clues for me?more clues more clues leh..hehe.anw.i dun feel good this days.its like stg juz aint right..feeling miserable...tink thats it for this tyms reply.take lotsa care..if ure a sec4..good luck for the remaining prelim papers..if ure a sec3 or 2..good luck for the upcoming end of year exams ya?yepp.take lotsa care and drink losa waterrrrr tooooo.

anw.gtg liao byee.

lovedd.<3
;1:53 PM.x

20040921

finally the com is ok....

[todae.]
hmm..let see..im in the com lab now.juz came back from np meeting.had a briefing of sum competition thingy.our sq participating in i dunno wat competition oso.but i think its fun.im involved la.but the thing now is..its held on the 23rd..and on the 23rd is still my fasting month.and i scared i tire myself out until i cant continue w my fast.but it all depends.i hope stg will happen on that day.cuz if this stg happen..i dun hv2fast.yepp.and todae i kept on dozing off during science period,dunno y.but i was juz too tired i guess.yepp.well im a slpy pig anw.

[yesterday.]
yesterday was super stupid.the tagboard was down.cudn see any tagboard.came all the way to com juz to see but only to find out it was down.went to aunts house to see whtr all com are like that and found out...yea its all the same.gonna ask my father to buy some cd that could cure the virus in my com.he say mayb he gonna buy.cant wait man.i wanna use my com again.i wanna go msn again.

[promo.]
was ok.not as bad as i thot.but still not sure whther i can pass anot.hope i could.wad we learn was diff from wad other skl learn again.but its like every promo always happen lyk this lor.so im like use to it?yepp.after that something bad happen.cried cuz i was too frustrated.and felt very insulted.its like it looks as though it was done purposely to offend me though i din do anything to her.but yea.i dun really care about it anymore.put it behind my back le.mayb it was done in the spur of the moment ya?yepp.though i was angry and frustrated at first..i dun tink i shud keep thinking about it and fret over it.it doesn help either.so decided that i shudn keep grudges.no use oso.but anw.the longest tym i eva got angry w a person is 2 days.shortest is barely even 5 mins.so yea.i dun reali care.everyone does mistake.

[you.all.]
we know how diff it is to handle the **** ya?i know that u all heard from sumone that we said that ure lousy and that we wanna make history.i think i know hu u heard it from.cuz this person was in th train with us wen we talk about it ryt?well.u may belif me or the other way round.but im juz here to clear the misunderstanding.we never said the word lousy nor the word lan or any word that gives the meaning of you all being incapable.we really din cuz i was there talking about it too.i admit that.but one things for sure.we really din say ure lousy.we know u all are capable.capable of even get 100%passes.that can be denied either.i know u are angry with us especially sum of you.we know our standard.we cant get a full pass.and like i said everyone makes mistake.about one of us..wearing our uniform wrongly.it was a mistake.we know it.and im sure..she hu did it, din do it on purpose.and we really din say ure lousy.i can assure u that.and there isn any problem with our ***** either.and we know our arm muscles are rather weak.well its our first tym handling a *****.i cant read other peoples mind.so i dunno if ure reading this..u wud think im writing it in a rude tone or normal tone.but frankly this is written in a normal tone.no anger added.i dun believe in hatred so i hope that everyting can b solved in this year.

[fallen-without-wings]
hah!finally can see ur tag.eurghh.stupid com.cudn see the tagboard yday.haha.aiya..i think u think too much la.i dun tink i hate you lor.yepp.have a good feeling bout that.so dun worry.oh no.dun be angry lar.kk ill tell you lar.i intended on using the yearbook.cuz since you sae ure not in sec1 it means its either 2,3,4 ryt?and all the pics of sec2,3,4 are in the yearbook wad.but yea like i said it was in vain.cuz i cudn find any names.or mayb there is..juz that i miss it.aiya.i dun wanna guess le lar.cuz hor..i know im hopeless at it..so i might as well juz wait until you tell me ryt?yepp.anw.to start it off...i AM a useless and hopeless person afterall.but i really wonder y u dun wanna tell me...i dun tink ure from np ryt?cuz i know it wudn b.thks for ur sympathy anw.yea i got a person in mind.but i wun say anything.and.i rather u reveal personally.dun ask me the reason y cuz i cant ans that.so since its gonna b personal i shall juz wait for u to reveal lor.yea im smiling now.-smiles widely-better stop smiling or else ppl gonna think im crazy..smiling to the com.haha.juz describe the collar pin lar.ure suppose to giv me clues that will help me wat.and yea.promo is np one.hmm..y im curious to know hu u are?of course im curious la.imagine u have a blog and theres dis anonymous person out there hu tag ur board.and then this person care about u and stuff.dun u wanna find out hu this nice soul is??i hope this ans ur question k?well anw.take care.if ure too bz dun bother to tag la.yepp.i will understand..anw.take lotsa lotsa care.byee.

yepp.anw gtg now. =]

lovedd.<3
;2:48 PM.x

20040920

feeling miserable..

[todae.]
in com lab again as usual.wanted to see my blog..and guess wad?my tag-board juz wouldn show lorx.eurghh.so irritating.my main aim to go see my blog is to see my tagboard lor.but i cant see it.irritating man.bleh.now very tired.arm aching.

[promo.]
was ok.not as bad as i thot.but still not sure whther i can pass anot.hope i could.wad we learn was diff from wad other skl learn again.but its like every promo always happen lyk this lor.so im like use to it?yepp.after that something bad happen.cried cuz i was too frustrated.and felt very insulted.its like it looks as though it was done to purposely to offend me though i din do anything to her.but yea.i dun really care about it anymore.put it behind my back le.mayb it was done in the spur of the moment ya?yepp.though i was angry and frustrated at first..i dun tink i shud keep thinking about it and fret over it.it doesn help either.so decided that i shudn keep grudges.and i can sae that im the kinda person hu forgives ppl easily anw.the longest tym i eva got angry w a person is 2 days.shortest is barely even 5 mins.so yea.i dun reali care.everyone does mistake.

[you.all.]
we know how diff it is to handle the **** ya?i know that u all heard from sumone that we said that ure lousy and that we wanna make history.i think i know hu u heard it from.cuz this person was in th train with us wen we talk about it ryt?well.u may belif me or the other way round.but im juz here to clear the misunderstanding.we never said the word lousy nor the word lan or any word that gives the meaning of you all being incapable.we really din cuz i was there talking about it too.i admit that.but one things for sure.we really din say ure lousy.we know u all are capable.capable of even get 100%passes.that can be denied either.i know u are angry with us especially sum of you.we know our standard.we cant get a full pass.and like i said everyone makes mistake.about one of us..wearing our uniform wrongly.it was a mistake.we know it.and im sure..she hu did it, din do it on purpose.and we really din say ure lousy.i can assure u that.and there isn any problem with our ***** either.and we know our arm muscles are rather weak.well its our first tym handling a *****.i cant read other peoples mind.so i dunno if ure reading this..u wud think im writing it in a rude tone or normal tone.but frankly this is written in a normal tone.no anger added.i dun believe in hatred so i hope that everyting can b solved in this year.

[fallen-without-wings.]
sorry cant reply ur tag todae.as u can read from the top part of my entry..i cant see my tagboard.so i cant reply.so yea.il see wad i can do bout it.yepp.take loads of care yea?

lovedd.<3
;3:16 PM.x

20040917

tmr is promo le...i died-ed..

[todae.]
todae gonna have drill later.but wateva it is i cant update much..cuz i have very limited time now..so this entry is only gonna be for my loyal board-tagger...cuz i have to reply her tags...

[fallen-without-wings]
kk u keep on saying i might dislike or something..perhaps u can give me one good reason y i shud feel that way?yepp.well u not being a sec4 is juz wat i guess.so yea.but since u say so..i shall focuse more on sec4.yepp.haha.wadeva..im tolking crap.my smart list?oh..wun tell you wad it is..but yea it din turn out as well as i tot.cuz i that smartr list thing din help me at all.y u so mean one?make me think hard hard.hmpf..hahaz.juz kidding lar.the its like i have to guess from alist of more than 1000 ppl.pity me la...ok fine..i shall juz presume that u coincidentally saw me lor..actually i got one person in mind budden im not sure..but theres so much things that ruled out the possibility of you being that person.but onli god knows.and wen u reveal urself...u revealing urself personally or wat?of course not fake one lar!bleh.really really its sincere one.yea final year cuming..thks for the good luck wishes.having a badge on ur collar?perhaps u can describe the badge.thankew....haha.anw i gtg le.u take care yea?see ya around in skl...keep on tagging.and ill try to reply faithfully.yepp.i really wished u could reveal urself soon u knw..but yea.anw.byee. =]

lovedd.<3
;1:48 PM.x

20040916

two more days to promo...

[todae.]
todae as usual had armpower training.they set it to every tues and thurs before mass run.actually quite a good suggestion ba.haha.anw.had a change in how we are suppose to do our pumpings.had to tuck in our arms and go down.stg like that.i know wad im trying to explain will most prob cant be understood by anyone.haha.but anw.the point is..its harder to do the new way.yepp.on tues we did 20pumpings and 20 dips[is that how it shud be spelt?haha.] anw.todae incresed the number of pumpings to 30 and the number of dips to 40.k it was quite challenging to do that.but i will endure for the sake of good armpower.wahaha.that was lame man.after that ran mass run.me pt and becca were running so slowly that almost half of the sec1s overtook us.the truth is...we din feel like running.and u knw the whether..it onli rains wen after mass run.so sickening ryt?eurghh.

[loads and loads of test.]
i know this ntg compared to the prelims sec4s are taking but.yea.i juz hate test.blehh.stupid.i dun see the point why we have to have test.k wadeva la.dun wanna complain so much.had science and malay test.for science..had sum valency test thing [chem].then malay was testing on grammers and stuff.well as usual i slept during malay test even before i finish doing it.and the best thing is that i din even know that i had to do the cloze passage cuz i thot it wasn part of the test.so well..wen i found out i had a GOOD tym scramming thru the cloze passage.i very good hor?thankew thankew...*ego* -_-...anw.yea.english mid yr next friday.then skip one week after that the rest of the midyr subjects.and i still dunno whtr i shud geog or hist.well we shall see lar hor.

to 2 ppl that i know...gd luck for ur prelims and nah..giving u all the glitters in the world and may ur results shine..haha..

[promo.]
as i have said..two more days to promo frm today.and i still haven memorize finish my first aid test.venue change again.changed to gan eng seng.-pukes- of all skl man.and anw i dunno hw to go there.so most prob will b gg with becca they all.i hope i can pass man.and i hope the organisation wun b as bad as the previous one whereby...nono im not allowed to write tings about np here.shall onli write good things.anw one good thing abt gg GESS..i can go see how NICE the skl is.wahahaha.im evil i know.
anw to all taking promo this sat..no matter wat rank u r..best of luck for it..may u all pass it and b promoted to a higher rank.yepp.

[fallen-without-wings]
i cn see that u flooded my taggie.owells i dun mind at all.continue flooding my tagboard yea?haha.not that i dun wanna reply ur tags on my tagboard la.juz finds it easier to type it all in an entry.gt more space u see.and yes u r one special person.cuz..u tag my board tho u tink i hate you.and best of all..its filled up with sweet stuff.haha.and stg tell me ure not sec4.cuz if ure hving prelims..den i dun tink u wud have so much tym to tag my board ryt?haha.but its juz my guess.and y wud i be disappointed to knw hu u are..told u i wun hate you..eh..i got one smart way to list all the ppl with name starting with letter m u know.haha.aiya enlighten my load ok...are you a senior?i mean heyy..if u tell me ure a senior i wud have to guess ppl from sec4 and sec3 ba.and it wud hard oso.so juz tell me k?saw me during recess?u mean on wed's recess?let see which class has the same recess as me...aiya go home then i guess.haha.eh ull tell me at the ryt tym?wad is the ryt tym anw?next yr?haha.kidding.ill juz patiently wait.yepp.and you knw wad?ive been smiling!!!haha.tho i cried.but yea.i made the effort to smile.one of the reason...for you..lalala.k thats all..

lovedd.<3
;1:56 PM.x

20040915

ill try to smile..i promise..

[todae.]
ntg much happen todae as well.in com lab now.having cs.and as usual im updating blog again.todae reach skool early but got lockd out cuz class was lock ma.haha.den after that got into class and did cme hw.but guess wad?Gam did not cum again.eurghh.so infuriating lor.but anw.yea.will be hving drills after skool todae.probably the last drill session before promo.promo cuming le.this sat leh.i still have a load of first aid notes to memorize.sighh.anw.todae ms neo chao funny.cuz she addressed ms janet lee as mrs lee.than ms lee was like ms not mrs..ms neo malu le.haha.v funny leh.then during lesson yun heng abused me.blehh.stupid ryt?got beaten up by her.she super lame and childish lor.hor yun heng?haha.omg.im so tired ryt now.and im hungry too.

[life.]
life have been ok.not like the past few weeks...[so fallen-without-wings..i think u can see me smile often le.hehe] anw.mum v biased lor.know last tym my bill overshot until $80 she confiscated my phone the whole month ok...then dis month my sis bill was $150 and she did NOTHING!eurghh.so infuriating.hw can she do that lor.so unfair.but owell wadeva.hp bill for this month haven cum.if bill high again i hope she wun scold me.or else im gonna scream my heads of her man.cuz wen sis received her bill and it was so much like that she din even scold her at all.

[fallen-without-wings]
yepp like i had promised..ill try to smile.the first sentence of this entry dedicating to you..haha.ull tell me hu u are arh..u say one arh..muz keep ur promise hor..hehe.ure unexpected?hmm..i dunno leh.and ur name starts with the letter 'm'?and ure not sec1 either.so its either sec3 4 or same level as me ryt?tell me more!!!haha...-smiles widely-r u a senior den?kk u take care too.and see u around oso tho i dunno hu u are..oh oh.wen are u revealing urself huh?

well thats all for today 1.30 le.wanna go eat lunch then go for hmt.byee.

lovedd.<3
;1:04 PM.x

20040914

lifes boring..

[today.]
now in the skl com lab as usual lar.the only way i can update me blog ma.blehh.nothing much happen today.and theres no hw either ba.i juz read [that thing] agin.yucks man.the sight of it makes me mad.and reading it is worst lor.totalli shit lor.but i dun care le.

[promo.]
its this sat.4 more days left only lor.man.quite scared.afraid i cant make it.no doubt i wanna pass but im not sure if i can make it.taking sergeant.gosh.and theres alot to learn for first aid oso.

k lar gtg.
byee.

lovedd.<3
;2:50 PM.x

20040913

fallen-without-wings:
i dunno hu u are.so hw wud i know hu to smile to?but anw.thks for the encouraging words yea?i wud love so much t o know hu u are.but if u prefer to remain this way.then its ok lor.yepp.but yea.ill try to smile kaes?

yn's fairygodmother:
i look scary?eh..ok.sorry.hahax.thks for the stars.my room now filled with your stars le.*imagining it with real stars*[fat hope man.]room much nicer.hahax.k was being v lame here.how am i?not good as u cn read frm the entrys.but yea.ill try to live evryday happily.oh no wad m i saying?can u understand?anw.knw hu u are le.saw u sad that day.so my msg to you is..cheer up!!!i cant gv u stars cuz im not gd enuff to b an angel.so i shall gv you erm..glitters.hahax.may you shine with the glitters and look like the stars you gave me!!!hahaha.

[you.]:
u take truckloads of care too okay?yepp.

[jnr.]:
missing yea loads too anw.yup.u njoy ur hols too yea?yepyep.

[sufan.]:
aiya relax la k?we share the same feelings as a sq.we will prove her wrong la hor...

[unknown3]:
another unknwn huh?hmm.thks for the compliment of my blog.so do u mind tellin hu u are?

shona.
thks for tagging.

candy maam:
thk you for the well wishes.we will try our best not to disappoint both you yea?

lovedd.<3
;2:44 PM.x

i miss my blog...

[todae.]
finally get to see my blog man.after one whole week.practically rot the whole week of the sept hols lor.let see wad i did..

mon:went to skool early morn at 8 to have history lectures until 10.not as bad as i thought lar.had 20mins break in the middle.yepp.after that had drills at 10.30 until 12.learn disprak.it was ok ba.juz that sum of us were still quite blurred by it.den from 1 until around 5 had mock promo.was quite screwd lar.was discouraged at certain point of tyms but yea.tried not to let it affect me and yea.the most hilarious part was our first aid test.hahax.we were like only told that we are to memorize it by dat day.so non of the info actually went into our heads.so we were given 15 minutes after our drills to memorize wad we can.and yea.as expected our sq came up with sum funny ans for the test.hilarious man.haha.
tues:rotted badly at home.cudn use com.cousin saved my day by asking me out.and we went to jurong lib and borrowd books to read.haha.there v condusive lor.aircon summore.haha.[sumone says i njoy too much luxury hor?] but its lyk yea.hu dun wanna study in a place where theres aircon??logic ryt?
wed:rotted at home with darling sister.hahax.din do much actually.listen to music and watch tv.take note:i haven done a single hols assignment lor.
thurs:went out with cousin sis and sis's ahem ahem..went to town to watch movie.wanted to watch cinderella story but in the end seats were full and the next time slot too late.so we all decided to watch the terminal.the show very funny and comical but the storyline was boring and dull.i wud rather slp man.then after watching lost our way while finding borders.know why?cuz i was e one hu was leading the way.im such a winner lor.
fri:had drills.yepp.polished up our drills and stuff yea.thats basically it.
sat:went for hiking at bt timah hill.reached the summit.and saw sum monkeys...erm...mating???wahahax.den after that took taxi with beck to the lib.I STINK BADLY LOR!stupid canx.luckily my cousin brought perfume.so used it.had no choice ba.haha.did a pathetic english report and barely completed maths pprs.hist?totalli not done.
sun:din have any religious class.wanted to go lib but decided against it in the end.was too tired.went to gran's hs.gave us money.hahax.slack alot in the earlier part of the day.den at night after the president star charity..realised that i had only fully completed 1 out of 7 hist question given for hols assignment.started to get serious.but i cudn concentrated my self for long.kept on disturbing my sis hu was on the phone with her sumone...and ate so much ice.haha.completed the whole hw only at 4.22am.slept for about 33 mins and woke up at 4.55.

wow that was long man.hahax.gtg liao.replying tags on the next entry.hahax.

lovedd.<3
;1:51 PM.x

20040902

im such a loser..a pure failure..

[todae.]
received back english paper todae.barely passed it can?erm 27/50?yepp.very lousy lorx.i totalli cant make it for compre manx.can juz simply fail it lorx.bleh.stupid.now in the com with morgan and yh.been dying to use the com.house com too stupid.cant even access internet.stupid ryt?i really miss using the com lorx.im treasuring my tym w my com now.feeling chao low now.im sucha failure.loser=in simple words.

[me=loser.]
i feel lyk a loser.a total failure.a disgrace to human kind.yucks!shtoopid.i hate it.i cant even help [you].[you] help me a lot thru my toughest tym but ryt now wen [you] are down, i cant even help [you]..tell me hw i can help?pls pls dun do it agn.it wun help.it wun lorx.rmb im always here for [you].dun do it agn...i beg [you]...if [you] do it again, then ill...nvm.e main point here is...dun do it agn.

[hols.]
very borrriiingg.was basically rotting and decomposing lorx.din knw wad to do.wanted to use the com at home.but knw wad??i cant even on it lorx.so shit ryt?den i was so frustrated that i prac scream.cuz i was alone at home ma.and i was bored ryt down to my bones.my father and bro went to queensway.[i shud have gone actually].mom went out to work.sis went her friends house for sum speech thing.in the end i went out with my cousin to je lib.she saved my life manx.or else i dunno wad wud have happen to me lorx.went there and read books.den go eat.den i went to her house!hahax.was suppose to go swimming w family.but in the end i decided not to.wasn in the mood ma.

[tues=teachers day]
went back to primary skl.wished ive been there longer.it was much beta there in pri skl.more peaceful unlike sec skl.so much stress.pressurizing.den had a great tym talking to my p6 tcher.v fun.tok tok for a long tym den she had to go le.cuz she wanna see her another batch of student.i was having a headache at that tym cuz was having sore throat.so decided to go hm with my bro.and u knw wad?wen i reach home i realise i din bring my house key!!!!called my sis to cum back.but she din wan to.so in the end we were locked out for lyk 1 or 2 hours.and i was bored cuz my phone died at that tym oso.ran out of batt.and i was starving.and i starve all the way till erm??10pm.my sore throat din give me any appetite to eat.i kept on slping and waking up.slept for very long.wat i know is that at 10 i woke up den i eat and watch tv for a while and then i slept agn.hahax.

well i tink i gtg le.v tired.byex.

lovedd.<3
;2:28 PM.x