malacca trip was chao fun..
[todae.]
went to religious class.had my sort of mid yr test.din study a single thing bcuz of the trip.plan-ed to study during the trip.bt was simply to tired wen i was in the hotel.so ended up studying ntg.din wanna go religious class bt mum insisted me to.bt gd news is.ill onli b tested next wk.cuz of time constrain juz nw.whee~!

[euro2004.]
OH ME GOODNESS!!!ENGLAND LOST LORX.eurghh.hw cn that be lorx?its all the refree's fault lorx.hw cud the goal nt b counted!nt offside one lorx.dammit.wanna kill him de.eee.stupid refree.actually wanted to support both portugal and england on friday.but ended up supporting england onli.dunno y.BUT I STILL WAN ENGLAND TO WIN DE!aargh.and rooney was injured lorx.poor him manx.or else i tink england cud hv won.but overall.i think england played a darn gd match.esp the defenders.yea.was chao funny.was sort of screaming early in the morning watching the match manx.den was suppose to b at the bus stop at 5.40 to take the bus to bb interchange but at 5.15 i haven even bath yet lorx.took a damn fast shower and manage to watch the penalty.beckham miss the penalty manx.arghh.nvm.its over anw.BUT ENGLAND STILL RAWKZ!!!hehe.

[malacca trip.]
-first day-
the first i said wen i saw pt in the morning was 'ENGLAND LOST!'hahahax.she said the smae ting too.we were toking abt it all morning lorx.i cud hv killed becca manx.she was glee-ing wen england lost.anw.went to lotsa place.eat the kampong food.not bad lor the food.went to the padi field.CHAO JI NICEE DE!!!the scenery was beautiful.budden me and teresa realised that we may hv left our wallet at the the place where we had lunch earlier.i panicked.so we told our tour guide[her name's beena anw.] and went back to the coach.thk goodness my wallet was in my bag and teresa's drop at the side of the chair.hahax.and i luv the dinner!!!damn nice.bt most of the food nt finish.hahahax.we were small eaters wad.then SUMONE cudn take spicy food so ended up being a vegetarian for a day.den went to the shooping centre.suppose to b nice bt in the end we walk outside instead.mdm rina is chao nice.she v funny de.after that check in to the hotel.v fun.esp in the hotel.had a great fun taking photos,luffing,toking and...EATING!!!peiting was our food supplier for the trip.she brought darn lotsa food lorx.bt candice din bring noodles in the end.hahahax.den we were all hungry that we went up up to the 9th floor to ask other sqmates for food.but all in vain.and nt to mention we nearly ended up in the wrong rm to ask for permission.and i SAVE THE DAY.-bows- =D
second day was more fun.but i tink ill write abt that another day.yepp.

[promo.]
guimei maam told us that me and cand may get a chance to retake our promo agn.darn happy on the bus.was smiling.i was dumbfounded.was happy plus scared too.cuz nid to overcum the fear of gg thru promo agn.hopefully we can pass.however,its still not confirm yet.we may or may not b taking the repromo.not confirm yet.it all depends on the AC.yepp.

[hols.]
its over at last.gonna go back to skl tmr!yea manx!hw not exactly all done.bt yepp.mostly done liao.lalalala.

k think i gtg liao.byee.

lovedd.<3
;10:12 PM.x

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[todae.]
in skl ryt nw.suppose to help candice do dreamweaver bt in the end nv liao.hahahax.m trying to finish up my hw todae.eurghh.shtoopid.hate hws manx.

[euro2004.]
ENGLAND WON!gd manx.they are in the quarter finals.portugal oso.yeah.bt the first match for england is against portugal lorx.dunno wich one to support.lalalala.will juz support both i guess.and itll juz b the matter of luck which one wins.hopefully its a draw.hahx.

[ice-skating.]
went ice skating yday.its ben lyk 2-3 years since i last skate lorx.den yday skate feel damn awkward for a moment.after that cn le.cuzzie was holding on to me wen skating.den she slipped and fall lorx.so i end up falling too.my jeans and shirt were wet canx?so embarassing de.hahaha.the same cuzzie made a record of falling down 4 tyms.and he was luffing lyk shit de.[tho real shit doesn luff]bt overall it was fun larx.it was cold in dere.bt i dunno why i felt warm so i took out my jacket and skate in short sleeve shirt instead.and i found out one thing..THE ICE SKATING SHOES ARE DAMN HEAVY! heavier den me lorx.after skating my feet cramp den cudn walk for a while.pain lorx.v tiring summore.bt i think im going to go skating w frens.anyone wanna join?i need ard ppl.cozt will be cheaper and the tym will b unlimited.i bet gg w frens is nicer than gg w family de.

[malacca trip.]
cant wait for it.gotta get out of hs.first tym gg out of singapore without family cuming along.whoohoo.cool huh?yeah.[happy..shalalala.its so nice to be happy..shalalala.]hehx. lamee.

[boyfren.]
hw dare u accuse me?hmpf.dun lyk u liao.say me until lyk that de.

[ha!]
so heard it frm candice herself huh?shtoopid ass.dun wanna use vulgarities on u bt u make me do so.u dunno hw it feels then u anwhw sae ryt.wait till it gets back to u and u shall knw hw it feels.meanwhile juz f*ck of frm my blog ok?and for ur info i din sae even say that candice is a crybaby.crybaby and crying bcuz of anger is a total diff thing.use ur brain larx.and im sure candice falls under e category of crying cuz of anger.and one more thing.crying is not a wrong ting do horx.u mean if u cry ull be sin-ned meh?no ryt?so i dun see the mistake in crying lorx.unless u tell me that ure mute then ill blif that u nv cry b4.yepp.

anw.gtg liao.hahahax.

lovedd.<3
;10:22 AM.x

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totalli flunk the whole promo..
candice relax kaes?

[promo.]
feeling so dwn now.infuriating.let see who were in my luck grp that tym for promo..
#1:becca
#2:peiting
#3:teresa
#4:claudia
#5:candice
#6:aysha
#7:yakka
#8:beekuan
#9:laura maam
#10:me

becca and laura maam are lucky.they pass their promo.congrats.pt,teresa,claud,aysha,beekuan n yakka cud at least take a repromo and hav a chance of passing.left w me and candice ryt?our fate=FAIL THE PROMO ENTIRELY!FAILlorx.v dimoralising and depressing canx?onli candice wud knw hw terrible this feeling is manx.ppl hu din practice cud actually pass deir promo.den me becca cand pt claud teresa actually slog our hearts out to practice our drills all for the sake of promo.becca's hard work paid off cuz she's nw a corporal de.pt claud teresa gt to take repromo.bt me and cand lehx?we fail totali lorx.TOTALLI!wad is dis manx?we stayed back evryday frm 2 to 5 or 6pm to practice our drills bt onli to knw that it had been washed dwn e drain.juz lyk that.
-snaps finger-eurghh.infuritaing.irritating arhx.candice actually broke dwn in skl lorx.bt shes gd at hiding de.i was holding back my tears in skl dunwan anyone to see me crying ba.bt here i am nw crying.it juz came and flow freely.bt the thing that disturb me the most is that me and cand's hardwork go to a total waste.furthermore we stay in bt btk.bcuz of the practices we reach hm 6.30 or 7 evryday.we[at least i do and im sure cand does too] even put aside our studies tho the exams were nearing with a hope that we wud pass the promo bt nv did we expect to fail it.and worst.we din even get to retake.nt even continuing with da promo.at least if dey had allowed us to take the hurricane lamp test i think we cud hv pass.bt nw cum out wad?no hurricane lamp test.wad is dis lorx?eurghh.and candice.she actually stayed back until 6 sumtyms tho she knw tt she hv tuition at 6.30 juz to prac drills.sumtyms even l8 for it.and she failed.feel v unjust for her lorx.she spent so much tym and effort on e promo bt onli to knw its all gone nw.at lest gv her a chance manx.so sad kaes?candice nv cried in front of ppl unless her father scolds her and she actually cried cuz of dis?summore in skl.dun blame her for crying.she has the right to.cant help bt feel that the whole thing is so unfair.onli both of us knw this feeling.i hv ntg to say.

[becca.]
congrats once agn upon passing ur promo.Corporal Rebecca Chow Hui Shi eh?
[peiting.claud.teresa.yakka.aysha.bee.]
gd luck for ur repromo?make gd use of the chance.pass it and dun gt stuck in lcp lyk me.GOOD LUCK.
[rest of squaddies.]
congrats on ur ppromotion to either aa lcp or a corp.CONGRATS!
[boyfren.]
sorry cuz i din tok to u in the mobil juz nw.was bad-mooding.too sad le.anw.luv you alwaiz.
[candice.]
heyy.u relax kaes>we'll work togethre and do e promo together and prove to em tt we failed is bcuz of the disorganised plan of the whole promo and nt BCUZ WE CANT DO IT!we'll make it together.meanwhile u relax kaes?onli u n me knw hw terrible dis feeling is.-pats ur back-

guess thats all i wanna sae.-cries-
byee.

lovedd.<3
;9:45 PM.x

holidays is juz bullshit...

[todae.]
now in skl com lab doing pbl supposedly.bt mine finishing le so decided to update lorx.cuz yday wanted to update bt the com jam agn lorx.dammit.bt nvm.reach skl extra early today so went to lib and do eng assignments.amazingly i still haven finish my eng assignments.cant b bothered de.hahax.bt anw.later hv np meeting.stomach rumbling nw.haven eat breakfast,onli eat one pathetic sweet.wanted to eat frm canteen bt all the shop cols.unluncky ryt?eurghh.let see wad deres to rite..OHH gt PRINCESS DIARIES2-royal engagement!!!wohoo.gonna save moneyand watch it manx.i gt lotsa movie i wanna watch lorx.

#1:ella enchanted
#2:new york minute
#3:princess diaries 2-royal engagement

bt money shrinking de.eurghh.muz go save money liao.i wanna watch all thus!!!muz muz muz.wahahaha

[yday.]
did ntg except for rotting.din plan to do any hw.to lazy liao.hahax.went religious class in the morning.was coughing badly.dammit.cough until nw oso haven end de.den was trying to contain the cough and end up nearly vomitting.luckily din vomit in class lorx.or else...i idunno wad happen le.hahaha.den after that watch tv.and rot rot rot..

[hols.]
BULLSHIT!
a little too vulgar le.bt cant help it.suppose to let us rest bt hw piling up.den still gt lit dramatization to regearse.den PBL!!!den hw summore.shtoopid ryt?bt thk goodness pbl all finish xcept for webpg.lalala.bt most of the tym ive been rotting cuz too lazy to finish up hw.eurghh.

[euro2004.]
looking forward to watching the next england match.hehe.i also support portugal.christiano ronaldo.woohoo.shuai arhx.bt nt realli my tympe de.hehe.and found out a player frm denmark named helveg or i dunno larx sumting lyk tt.he looks lyk duncan frm BLUE manx.

[npcc.]
cant wait for the malacca trip.first tym gg out of country without family and with frenz summore.nicee nicee.surprisingly mum actually allowed me go lorx.gonna get $50 frm her i think.am nt gonna spend and save it to watch movies.hols no np.v bored de.ferst tym hols no np lorx.bt anw.nvm.

kix gtg liao.byee.

lovedd.<3
;11:08 AM.x

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yes i do have a boyfren.hor BOYFREN??

[todae.]
tried finishing up our website for pbl .left with dumping all the info in onli le.wahahax.muz thk SHUFEN for helping us manx.or else we will end up stoning the comp lyk wad i did with jocelyn on wednesday.whee.at least we made a progress.damn eyes.so irritating manx.frm juz now tearing lorx.den eyes red-red de.v pain summore.dammit.sux.damn mother.shtoopid lorx.she angry w my sister den she scold me so lorx.alwaiz vent anger on me lorx.unfair.she driving me crazy lorx.im gg berserk lyk last yr lorx.she might as well dig up a hole and dump me in ryt?EURGHH!
irritating arhx!!!!!!!

[euro2004.]
ENGLAND WON!!!3-0.woohoo.lalala.finally manx after their lost to france.and my sis din wake me up to watch the match last nyt.shtoopid lorx.she happily wake up den told me that ENGLAND WON!!!den i was lyk screaming Y DIN U WAKE ME UP YDAY??? and she happily ans...hu ask u slp?hu ask u nv wake up?hahaha.sum kinda sis she is ryt???eurghh.but wadeva it is ENGLAND WON!and dey r back on track.lalala.=D

[finding.]
i found out 2 phrases which is true for mi life except n0.1

#1:suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem
#2:there is no light at the end of the tunnel even if dere is its an oncoming train.

meanings
#1:suicide is a way out for problem but a permanent one cuz it drive u str8 to ur graveyard.meanwhile the problem is a temporary one cuz it may not stay forever de.

correction:solution is a permanent solution to a never-ending problem.cuz for me my problem never seem s to end.eurghh.true ryt?

#2:ITS TOTALLI TRUE!theres no light at the end of the tunnel for me.and uts totalli true de.at least for me.i rmb telling this to sumone.[that person shud knw im referring to her.now u knw y i told u this]because even of there is a light is an oncoming train which is to me it means its gonna knk me dwn.and POOF!im dead.--->wishes of sum ppl out dere.

i tink ive enuf of blogging le.before my eyes start tearing agn.byee.

lovedd.<3
;10:41 PM.x

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i miss boyfren so much de.cant wait to see u again.=)

[todae.]
mood gg dwn agn.no idea y tho.bt nvm.

[homeworks.]
nw using the hyperdictionary.com thingy to find meaning for my 200 words for phrase bk.finished up my maths hw last wk.left with eng.let see wad im suppose to do for english.bt sum of id done liao.

#1: 20 newspaper article
#2: read 10 books
#3: 200 words in phrase bk
#4: choose 3 short story frm reading journal and answer the questions
#4: read roll of thunder, hear my cry and study the plot
#5: do an essay on 'family recipe'
hate hw manx.sum kinda holidays dis is.suppose to let us rest bt instead hw are clogging up my brain.brain cell dying liao.o00o toking abt braincells remind of stg.[pt:rmb abt braincell dying then.brain concusion?fate+destiny=brain concusion.]hahax.hope that freshened up ur mind yea?-grinz-

[life.]
been good de.making its turn agn.bt i juz hafta wait for the darkness to cast over me agn.sure hv one.cuz i dun tink happiness lives in me.it always leave me.its lyk gold.i cn nv get it.onli darkness loom over me.

[health.]
sux.getting back my gastrics.medicine finish liao.and as usual my damn cough is not gone yet.yuckkkkkkks.stuuuupid.-clutches area around kidney-aww..shoots.stomach pain de.

gtg.getting sudden attack agn.

lovedd.<3
;8:50 PM.x

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[todae.]
hah.it so late and im still online.surprising eh?tings are making a turn agn.wonder wad it'll end up to this tym round.yepp.well anw.went to suntec w becca and candice supposed ly to buy caps.den in the end dey said they hv theirs le so its left w me.wen first reached suntec becca suggested watching movie.-peeped into wallet-i hv enuf $$ ba so decided to go along.becca wanted to watch shrek2 agn.owell i din mind cuz i haven watch.bt candice din wan to.she said boring or stg lyk tt.bt wateva it is WE DIN WATCH MOVIE IN THE END!sighh.bt we ended up crapping ard the whole suntec.ate@macs.and i realised beccas a dog!wahahaha.den were looking ard at clothes and stuff.planning u-know-wad-it-is.we always plan v fast one.the whole performance planned liao.including costumes.tralalala.cool huh?den i was bz finding my cap.in the end went to this shop and bought a reebok cap or rather half cap.was choosing between the reebok half cap or adidas normal cap.bt becca and candice said i look beta w the half cap.so bought the half cap in the end.and i lyked.becca was bz trying all the cap tt was there.including those winter-hats??i dunno wad it is.bt yea.we look lyk sum idiot luffing w caps on.candice bought 2 books while becca bought wallet4her fren.after that we r suppose to go coffebean and drink bt candice decided nt too.so becca ended up gg to imm w me.went to ljs.bought her an ornament.and so one item off my owe-list.wahaha.and she bought me a full-scape paper.owellx tmr we hv no np!shud i b happy or sad.happy cuz dun hv2wake up so early.sad cuz im gonna bored stiff at home.

[boyfren.]
heyy loong tym nv see u.miss u loads manx.looking forward to seeing u.=)-hugx-
[zakk.]
gonna miss u for 6 days manx.v loong lehx.sighh.juz looked forward for ur return so i cn hv sumone to sms.hahax.nt to forgt ill miss ur morning greetings too!eurghh.gonna miss u while ure away.=(
[kelly.]
u may not blif.but yupx.its up to u i guess.bt wad i cn tell u is that its nt referring to u kaes?
[becca.]
thks for the full-scape paper.v nice.so we r even now yea?-grins-

guess thats abt it.wanna slp le.chiao!=)

lovedd.<3
;11:54 PM.x

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[todae.]
had the outdoor cooking competition thing.hosted by crescent.had to report at 7.30.bt started at 7.15 instead.bt dun realli care anw.then after that started the whole thing at abt 10 i guess.din kp track of the time.then i was the hoola-hoop holder.v farnie.the skl kp on doing wrong things and kp on re-doing.gt 'scolded' by sumone.actually not really scolded juz warned yepp.bt owellz.it was my fault anw.was it??dun really care anw.its over le.and i dun lyk bearing grudges.dismissed at abt erm 2.long and tiring dae.i was exhausted frm all the coughing.died coughing manx.cant stand it.its getting frm bad to worst.the docs medicine is nt working.AT ALL.shtoopid.v pian lorx.feel lyk as tho stomach gonna rupture anytym.and nt to mention its affecting my head.temperature oso nt say that gd.let sae its 37.9 now?sighh.my health's getting frm bad to worst.SUX de.and i fail promo de.owellx.cis say there may not b a re-promo.so yea.and can sae becca v lucky horx.congrats on ur promotion to corp.rank.

[kelly.]:
i totalli dunno wad u mean dear.hw hv i disappoint u?the previous entry??it wasnt even referring to u.enlighten me ya?

k larx gtg.been coughing the past few minutes.hours.days.week.sighh.one day u gonna see me ending up in hospital de.

lovedd.<3
;8:27 PM.x

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[the Us in this case can refer to one or many people.]

wow lorx.nt obvious at all wad.u told me wad happened before wont repeat agn..but y izzit repeating agn now?y?in fact its u, u re the one hu causing this to happen agn.when u show signs of it, i shrugged off thinking it might be juz stg normal.but it happened agn.wad is this?stop the acting, stop the drama kaes?its disgusting and sickening.ur actions are enuf to show evryting inside u.i tried to endure but hw long can i keep on doing so?i hv my limit too.ive always wanted to giv up.tt feeling now is juz being separated frm me by a thim membrane.wen the pressure gets too strong, its gonna burst n my life will fly away never cuming back.ohh.cum to think of it,tt is wad u are wishing and hoping for isnt it?for me to be gone forever since im such a pain in ur lives.im like a cancer-strucked patient.living a painful and slow death.reaching a point in life where u cant wait for death to arrive to end the pain.suicide might b e easiest way out.bt I juz cant bear to leave the people around me.[esp sumone[farz u knw hu she is].i might seem small in her eyes but she’s still great to me.]
i juz dunno.u may knw that im referring to you.gd then but if u dunt I dun really care either.im juz sick of ur acting.to trust that I treated u all lyk the bestest and closest frens I had in crescent.but nv hv I expected this to happen.i hate to show it to people.i rather kp everything to myself.and recently I found out that ive been always keeping my feelings to myself since young.let sae 3 yrs old or younger?my mum told me tt since young weneva she beats me or hit me, no matter how hard I would juz stand there and nv cry.there wud only be tears at tym but no sound wud cum out.and I guessed ive been doing that till now.ppl say cry your hearts out and ull feel better.bt tt nv work on me.it juz makes my condition worst.my eyes will juz puff up and my face will turn red bt I nv felt better after that.y tell evryting out only to knw that dey gonna leave u in the end.and wads more.spilling out evryting only to knw that they’re gonna btray u.wads the whole point in confiding then?

Im tired nw.tired of life ard me.sick.sick of it.sumtyms I dun see the point in continuing this life.its lyk living in prison.evrytings nt ryt.filled w depression and tortures.and it totally SUX.sorry to the people hu had been affected by my behavior.really really sorrie.

[dinie.]:
thk youf or bringing me to u-knw-where ryt?yepp.reallie owe it all to u.thankew.=)-hugx-
[kelly.]:
sorry for dao-ing u.

lovedd.<3
;4:51 PM.x

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