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m so sian now.had np on mon and tues.We did souvenir for the sec1 next yr.stayed bk till ard 6 cuz went to hang up np banners.i din noe the banners were all so chao nice lor.schls re-opening on fri and i haven even finish my hw.haiz.bt anw.will try to finidh them.hiye.hate hw.schl=will hv a brand new collections of homework and studying...so sian.tho i lk forward to the re-opening of schl i dun look forward to the hw and those stuff.
nw watching nation's count down w sis.whoa but im seriously not enjoying it.i cant see it clearly.v blur!stg's reallky wrong w me.-eyes watering+cant stop sniffing-my eyes hurts.haiz.guess ill stop here.
o yea guess wad ill hv a junior in crescent and she's in g3!she'll b my direct junior!haha.i think i better stop here.getting worst getting .im getting headaches.-head spinning-
;11:24 PM.x
20031228
but anw.todae.tried to do finish up my hw.but lyk-DUH!of course i din.haha.still gt english and lit.. haiz.will try to finish it up before skool starts.o yea.school starting soon!whee~!sho fun.at least dun hafta rot at home.but, but, but actually my hols this year also filled w school activity if not oso self-trng.go to skool lyk 3 tyms per wk.bt fun la.thats wat i wished anw.at least can go out of hs can le..haha.
yday went queenstown w family.and i got a new fone!whee~!sho chao happie yday.trade fone to 3200.haha.sho fun.wanted to change to 7250 but change mind.sis change oso but she chao unlucky.at nite her sim card kena block den cannot use until tmr.muahaha.and i hv PS2 or shud i sae its my brother's one.but i still can play!WHEE~!isnt that cool?haha.bt anw.went eat dinner after that at mac's.wanted to eat at KFC but gave in to sis.sun wanna quarell and see her sulking the whole dae thru.
Whee~!feel chao satisfied manx.helped cousin and candice w her blog tho candice one din turn out as i wanted but will still help if i got the tym,k?but cousin one's turn out as she wanted and she said its nice!haha.so nice feeling manx.onli need to add a few things and her blog is DONE!haha.I'm the best!-ego rising- haha.
m sho hyper todae.hope itll stay this way.but i dun tink it can eva happen cuz its lyk the depressions keep on gg into my head.but we shall see.anw.made a bottle in my soul to bottle up evryting that happen to me sho that i wont bother any1?yupz.cool rite?
but anw.gtg le.will try to update as often as i could!
;10:27 PM.x
20031225
dunno hw to sae la.had been gg thru lotsa depression lately.guess evrything's changing back to wad its been lyk dis year.ill try not to bother any1.shall keep a bottle in me so that i could bottle everyting up lyk i use to do.but reallie lor...y do ppl always hurt me in evryway possible?rite frm ppl whom i dunno to my own family members..?nice to hurt ppl one meh?totalli dun understand this.
mum went to m'sia todae.sis and i din wanna follow so stayed at hm.mum gave sum work to do.had no choice bt to do it.bt before that uncle called and ask if i wanna follow him out.agreed cuz was too bored at hm le.went to this place where i dun even noe.but was hving sales for bedsheets and pillow case all those stuff la.and it was chao hot and stuffly lor.but bought quite a lot of things.and wads cool was that they were all purple.purple rawks manx.but not forgetting orange and black oso.they rawk too.bought new slippers.but they were green cuz no purple.onli got green,pink[eww,but it was quite nice la actually] and sum kinda red+orange.but find the green nicest so bought the green one.then bought this cushion.softsoft one.purple colour summore.bought purple bedsheets oso.uncle and aunty was chao nice.den wen reached home quickly bath and do all the chores mum assigned me to do.-phew-lucky finished before she came bk.bt forgot to tell sis she was suppose to cook rice [tho she did without me telling her].uncle told mum she cook at 4pm onli.den she told mum she wasn being told.and i got a good lecture frm mum manx.but its lyk so unfair lor.i went out early morn w aunt and i for get to tell sis not that i dun wanna tell her ma.and mum din even thk me for my help.im totalli happie for that.but its lyk wadeva la.dun care one.
i still dun understand.y do ppl keep on hurting me?i dun lyk to b hurt all tym one lor.im not a statue that has no feelings,k?ive had enuf of depression tho its filling me up lyk running water.wish it cud juz be turned off.but dun tink it eva will.but anw.life hafta go on...
;11:33 PM.x
first dae:
din turn out that well.had fever.on that sun actually dun feel well le.but temp was 37.0[or stg lyk that.cant rmb] so tot it was still ok.then in the morn went to schl w candice.reached schl at abt 6.30?yeah chao early manx.bt anw.went to mobil to eat breakfast.den went bk to schl.wasn feeling that well den but tried to be happie and normal.haha.den went fall in being called by candy maam.shocked me,k?told to take temp.[thks yongni maam for the thermometer].whoa.den temp was lyk 37.5.ok.shtoopid rite?den had pt fall out half-way went temp reads 37.6.den sat under tt umbrella w thaya maam.took temp again and it was lyk 37.8.whoa.can die lor.ntg can b more unfortunate den falling sick on e first dae of btc.temp continues to b lyk that till at nite.37.5,37.8...ya.candy maam was running a high fever..take care,ya?get well soon.{",)had sentry duty.whoa and secrets kena digged out.bt o wellz..was i telling the truth?onli god knows.heex.
second dae:
had pt at 6.30am.temp was 37.0.and its being decided im ok.so continue w the pt and stuff.did the switch side window.and i did it!during lunch we were lyk trying to finish up our rations but of course we din la.and guess wad?i end up bringing bk all the left overs.our grp won the most united grp.whee~bt anw.after kena dismissed we changed and bk hor..she actually took a shower in schl.that woman hor.haiz.then stayed back after that to gif out extra btc stuffs lyk solid fuels and all those.and once again i end up bringing up all of the things.but dun reallie mind one la.den went to westmall w candice and drank happie cup.nicenice.took taxi hm cuz was bringing a beeg box and i could stand no more.feel lyk falling anytym.haha.reached hm and took a nicenice shower.and took a rest.took temp and it was still 37.8 and all those lor.and I FINISHED UP MY PANADOLS LE.gv it to the maams.but reallie hope the person hu need that panadol get well soon hor.dun reallie noe hu the person is la.and thats abt it.yeaps.but towars the end hor.sum ppl in my grp ar...whoa.keep on getting onto my nerve manx.lucky it was onli a 2-dae camp.or else wud hv died there.but glad its all over.
o yea and wud lyk to thks the sec2 maams for the games and sec3 maams for organising the camp.thks alot.
;10:59 PM.x
20031221
eh yeah la.dunno wad to sae oso.totalli dunno watta blog abt.today's a practically boring dae.did ntg much except for rotting at home doing ntg.haha.anw.tmr's btc le.haiz.-sigh-...but sure to hv more to write after btc,k?so till then....chiao!
;10:36 PM.x
20031219
hey..wats ur problem lor?i suck?i noe lor.well.many ppl said so.but o wellz.i dun gif a damn.but reallie wad hv i done to anger u that way?well most preferbly tell me hu u r la.isnt it beta that way?i suck up to maams?hey!wad do u mean by that huh?wad did i do in order to do that?shtoopid,k?i dun even wanna do that...its disgusting and sickening to suck up to maams,k?pls lor u dun hv to insult until lyk that can?the maams hate me?well i dunno la.if they hate me then i guess i juz hv to accept the fact of it rite?whats the big deal?u tink is nice to insult ppl izzit?hw would u feel if the same thing happens to u?and pls lor.wen do i lead my np mates?as far as im concern i dun.unless if i do it unknowingly.i reallie dunno.I SWEAR,K?even if i do...its really unintentional.u r my senior?ok fine sori for hurting u in anw la.fine ill stop it.but i dun even noe hw to stop it if i dun even do it!i dun even im a leader.dun even feel that way lor cuz i noe IM NOT ONE!
hey u tink its nice to insult meh?even if im an animal as wad u called me,[a pest,a pig]they still hv feelings u noe.animals hv feelings too.hw will u feel if this happen back to u.its not nice feeling lor.its v hurting and depressing,k?cant u juz leave me alone?!
;9:55 PM.x
20031218
WE COMPLETED OUR BANNER! lyk finally lor.after so many daes.went to skl for btc briefing.well.its was ok la.tho my stomach hurts at first.but its ok after that.tho it was quite bored but at least we learnt new cheers.and ain is totalli ADDICTED to TITANIC[cheer].after her addiction another cheer which i dunno hw to spell it.
went to beach road w pt and ain to buy the btc stuff.thks to ain....we took a shorter route to that place.dunno wad it is called oso.reached there and called sum ppl...then still got 2 ppl.cant contact them,k?we all were so damn fustrated canx?then ain couldn make a choice whether or not to buy for them.BUT in the end she bought!so pt...U LOSE!!!!SHE CHOSE TO BUY IN THE END!haha.L-oser!!!!=D then altogether cost lyk..erm..$170++..THKS AIN!!!![for sponsoring the $$.hehe.]then we went to eat our lunch at er..1545hrs.we all were practically sho damn hungry canx?then went to buy food w ain.whoa that ain hor..her food arriived sho 'FAST',canx?i sit there wait for her until lyk wanna die le.then went back to our sit..pt finish her food le!MIRACULOUSLY!!![lyk again?!]but o wellz..dis few daes she's been practically finishing her food faster than mine.GOOD GOOD GOOD. then divided the load.i got the heaviest but not that bulky la.my palms were lyk gg all red,k?then mum called.ask me buy a roll of plastic for wrapping book.so went to westmall since thats the nearest i could go.went all the to 4th storey to the popular.was lyk sum kinda shtoopid woman bringing a beeg red plastic filled w things.i look lyk as tho if anyone is to hit me..ill easily fall off one,k?but really lor.then go all the way back down to go home.v pain,k?then was at the bus interchange,looking at my red palms *staring*..IT WAS BLEEDING!then had no choice but to endure the pain and bringing it on the same injured hand cuz cudn bring it on the other hand keep on hitting my bag.then v irritating.so nw type w onli one hand cuz feel that its been too loong tym since i last blogged.then i oso wanna b updated abt the things ard me ma.ya.hands hurting le.dun wanna blog le.
BTC'S COMING LE!-haiz-
O YEAH!that pt hor...she's been boasting cuz she gotta contact sj and clare.been boasting lyk as tho she's a police getting in contact w a most wanted criminal.haiz.lamepig.haha.ok.but at least.WE CONTACTED THEM AT LAST!THK YOU PT! haha.but its really lyk getting contact to a most wanted criminal leh.called them till lyk shit.but at least they r contacted now.gtg.buaiz.
;10:32 PM.x
20031210
erm.earlier in the dae went to beach road w xy maam and a sec 3 girl.[stephanie].i tink?yupz.den were walking in the rain.nice nice.loo0ng tym nv play in the rain le.then in the morning hor my mum gave me an umbrella cuz it was raining heavily.then wen i reached down stairs hor...guess wad happen?the handle of the umbrella cant b pulled out.shtoopid rite?mite as well dun giv me rite.but o wellz.i dun tink she knew abt that oso.den reached skool was basically gorging our food.haha.cuz reached skool at 2.then gui mei maam gave us tym to eat lunch.and it was already 2.10.and given 30mins[until 2.40] to eat and buy lunch.haha.den by the tym we reached back to the canteen frm mobil it was already 2.25.left 15 mins to eat lor.den all of us were eatingour food so fast and ain prac finish her cup of noodles[hot one la.all of us oso hot one] in 3mins.haha.v fast rite?then 2nd was pt.
MIRACULOUSLY[is that hw u spell it?] manx.she finish eating within 7mins.haha.always eat v slow den juz now finish even earlier den me.hahaA.den claud finish hers next.[9mins] den me dun wanna b the last to finish finish soon after[10mins].but but but...i went to gulp it down.so went i finish eating i nearly throw out evryting back.was lyk squating outside the toilet and trying to control myself frm puking.haha.but anw.did banner until ard 5.30 w the help of stephanie.yupz.thks anw.yupz gtg le.thats all.
;11:01 PM.x
20031205
rod was fun.reached skool at 10+ and practice our item.then [sum1] came.actually din wanna include [her] le.but scared later [she] sad.decided to include [her] again.then weneva we prac.[she] show no interest.then evrytym oso go ostracized herself.[she] tot we still angry.but explained to [her] le.hope [she] get it.but anw.after that we were told we r suppose to plan a welcoming item to welcome the sec4s.wanted to leave to sqmates that r not involve in the rod item.but in the end hor.....its candice hu planned then the whole sq was involved in it.and as we expected..it turn out lyk erm..i dunno wad la.but anw..thks candice!haha.then dinner.no comments la hor.not sae the food was not good la.but i juz couldnt swallow it down.then after eating nearly vomitted.haha.then this shtoopid me hor.drank a cup of unstirred syrup[meaning:in the cup its onli syrup no water] despit ain telling me not to drink it cuz its not stirred.haha.nearly throw up the whole thing manx.yucks.eew.manx.=/then at nite got the concert.its GREAT!no one forgot their steps nor lines.haha.then played sum games.had to partner w a sec2 maam.dunno wads her name leh.eeew.whole hand smeared w eggs and flour.haha.but too bad din get to complete the game cuz police came wen burglar alarm at MPR got triggered.sho sad.then had heart-to-heart talk w x-NCOs[yanyi and clara maam].den went out of the hall and decided to tell ghost story.then sumone was sho frightened till the maams noticed it..so diceded to go back into the auditorium in case anything would hv happen.couldnt get to slp lor.so damn.had fun w pt looking at hw our sqmates slping cuz onli 2 of us were not slping.claud too funny le.she slp got so many style one.then i kept on luffing.then made story frm hw sufan,clare and jess was slping.haha.funny till cannot le.den 3-4 am had santry duty.was given chocolate biscuit for supper.force myself to finish it.cuz dunno y.too full le.paiseh-ed myself wen ask to report to maams.keep on turning.that nite seriously got hearing problem le.sorry hor jl maam.too deaf le then cannot hear ur instruction for reporting.then after sentry still cudnt slp.ppl were all fast aslp.then i was lyk sitting looking at the sec4 maams dancing.then had stomachache.v pain lor.slept for lyk 5 mins then woke up cuz too pian le.woke up all together 3 tyms cuz stomach was hurting le.but decided to keep quiet since evryone slping then dun wanna disturb ma.total tym slept:15mins ONLI!next dae was sho slpy went home first thing i did was bath.then ate lunch den slept frm 12-6.haha.but still slpy lor.hiye now stomach pain le la.gtg.
;2:43 PM.x
20031201
feeling damn fustrated.angry.pissed.dimoralised.disappointed.discouraged.
"whoosh! did u see that?thats our hard work and effort.gg down the drain.mayb shud sae goodbye hor? byebye =["
;8:14 PM.x
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