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;11:42 PM.x
on that day[27/8]...u told pple wrong things which makes them hv the wrong impression abt me...y?
this was wad happen...
ms azinar wanted to change some of our seating places.then partners place got changed at first.was realli unhappie...then jas was supposed to change place w yh....i was lyk..WAT?!i aws gg SHIT SHIT SHIT!w always lyk this...then suddenly got fire alarm...so went down the rotunda....while gg down the rotunda told ms azinar
me:i hate u ms azinar...
ms a.:smile
me:i really hate u..change kelly's place for wat?change jas place for wat?
ms a.:smile
whoa i was realli gg crazee.then [she] walk pass me then suddenly started luffing i was lyk SIAO arh?
then after skool in class somone keep saying humiliating things can?
then found out that they tot that i went to tell ms a.'THK U ms azinar' juz bcuz [she]'ll end up seating some where ard me...
wth lor...i'm not crook lor...do [you]noe that bcuz of this [u] spoilt all my happie mood on that day...i felt as tho the whole world crashing down on me....[u]'ve cuz too much suffer that a little incident lyk that is lyk sum kinda mistake that can cause my life....
after all those insulting and suffer and names [she]call me earlier and those betrayals, i rather die than being happie sitting somewhere near[her]...bcuz of[her]i'm afraid of trusting anyone bcuz of the fear of being cheated lyk wad [she] did.
do u noe that bcuz of u i feel lyk attempting suicide again that day?but i noe i cant...but i did hv a cut on my hand...y do hafta make me suffer?u enjoy it rite?u n-joy seeing me suffer and cry everyday rite?*still crying[harder]*
once for all i juz wanna make it clear.. pls stop all this...and I HATE [HER] AND I'M NOT A CROOK!
;11:37 PM.x
condition:sick-fever+cough+flu
hmmmm....realli feeling sick lor...fever gone down but cough and flu worsen...nose 'murdering' me...keep on sneezing and i juz cant stop coughing....cough until cannot le...lyk wanna die le...cough until stomach hurts...
today felt that the everythings changing again...tho worsen...shall go thru it strongly and alone..realli feel bad making pple worry abt my condition...someone's leta realli wake me up and made me realise the effects i put onto the pple ard me bcuz of my condition.shall not make pple worry and sad abt me anymore le...enuf of all this worries wanna put an end to it...feel lyk dying again....but cant....
but i realli don understand...wen i hv probs...[she] ask me to voice out everything and told me not to bottle evrything up...but wen i start telling [she] start telling me to stop it cuz [she]'s getting irritated...this person i'm toking abt may not even realise that i'm toking abt her...shall juz keep it a secret...don wanna hurt her hu hv once shown her care for me...don wanna be called an ungrateful person...but i realli appreciate ur care and concern ya...
mmm realli bz nw...will try to blog again later....
;11:10 PM.x
20030824
ok its been lyk a week since i last blogged.
haiz...life hasnt been easy for the last few days.kept on getting sick.today i'm hving fever and sumkinda headache.i feel lyk dying liao le.feeling quite weak...but i shall be strong.*encouraging myself*
for everyone out there namely rebecca, peiting, claudia and esp to two seniors, yongni nad candy [maam], hu have helped me thru my toughest times.really appreciated those encouragements.hmmm.but i realli don feel well.at least one tym a day sure feel that way.not tt i don wanna go to the doc.but i noe its no use.tell mum oso at the most she'll stuff me w panadols.am really sori.haix.
to [anonymous]...
ok thks for the offer to help but i don even noe hu u r, hw to help me?u juz need to reveal urself wat...wats so diff?and hu says i olmost die for yh?siao ar...but the truth is yet to be known...hmmm...
thats all i gotta blog...head spinning liao le...
;7:29 PM.x
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