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;8:37 PM.x
20051218
well lets see. arrived at 8 on thursday to rehearsed dance with becky candz and trees.
becky was my partner in the tango.we were about to practise full dress when we say liling and insyirah.so becky was doing her job in trying to shoo them away.haha. yeah aniwaes.after that we went for lunch at tanglin.as usual i couldnt eat.only ate a quarter of it.came back to school to watch other sqds performance.haha.had fun playing scoop too.heh.
then it was GAMES! i was group three ic.well.yeah.i cant realy rmb whose in my team.sorrie.anw yeah.we won the first game.and then second game.was RATHER FUN.i got bullied namely by insyirah liling and theresa.omg.i was like flour bathed by them k.i was happily helping them finish the apple when suddenly it was raining flour all over me.well that wasnt all yea. i thought it ended but i was SO WRONG.it started raining again.and this time there was floor even in my mouth.goodness.
next game was some water game.i thought i escaped from getting bullied.but again i was WRONG.theresa came with a bag of water and then the next thing i knew i had water all over my head.and im telling you water and flour sure dun mix well.i had sticky things on my head.haha.it was funny.cuz i was so trying to run away from those three musketeers lah.my luck to b in the same group as them.
shall jump to the last game.MR FOX i think.i decided not to play.i wetted jingwen(sec 2) and huiyin (sec 1) cuz they were injured and i dun want them to miss out the fun.and then i cant rmb who liling and theresa or insyirah aiyah either one of them la were trying to refill their bag of water.i had this brilliant idea of taking revenge.so i decided to pour the whole tray of water on them.but soon after that i had another tray of water splash all over my front.i was like OMIGOSH.well i guess it was kinda fun larh.
then helped pt clean up the eggs in the canteen.the smell was NICE man.i dunno how pt could actually stand them.haha.
dinner was ok.i could not eat.i dunno what was wrong with me.i only ate one spoon of rice and threw everything away.haha.games after dinner was nice too.played whose neighbour do you love and scoop again.insyirah was trying to sabo me during the nighbour game thing.BUT DID NOT SUCCEED haha.too bad.well had alot of fun.
then it was performance.i was the emcee.with my retard partner as usual REBECCA.something freaky happen.i dun wanna elaborate.i like the sec2 performance.the GUYS were cool the girls were sexy.haha.the sec1s performance were darn unique larh.not bad for first time performer. ((:
our item was nice too.not too mention candice skirt that flies up and made the audience goes crazy applauding for her.tango was a huge success.except for the part where my heels nearly fly off larh.haha.then had gift exchange.and interaction time.it was rather fun.for the first time i chose dare for the truth of dare game.nice larh.dare wasn that hard either.had a nice time talking about THEM too. (;
told sec1s and 2s abt their sentry before lights off.ncos came and talk to us again.had a nice time.phrase for the night "IN-thing".laughed alot.and i was described in a lot of ways.
hx maam: shafina u know what?
me:wad?
hx:ur body looks shorter than usual
me:uhm ok
a few minutes later
me:-sits up.too tired of lying down-
mw maam: shafina ur head look big
me:huh
mw: ur head looks bigger than ur body
and i started laughing.
around 5.after my sentry duty.
me:-lies on my front with my chin on the floor.and i dozed off-
hx : shafina like that also can sleep
me:-woke up- huh?huh?huh?tired ma
hx: u look like a lizard.
goodness.oh she also said i have the looks of becoming a crrok(les?).haha.completely stunned.
next day woke up with only around 1 hour of sleep.had breakfast and did sentry duty.no elaboration needed.only dismissed at 10.left school immediately.owells. had breakfast at macs and reach home at 12.
;9:01 PM.x
20051007
was with joyce and qixin.
stayed back in school from 5 in school till around 9.30?
yea.
ohh and ive got myself a new jie.
she's JOYCE!
accidentally called her grace by mistake just now.
dunno y the name appeared in my head.
haha
now i have 3 jie. :))
whee!
very tired.
have been studying continuously until 2-3 am in the morning.
gosh i lost the MUGGING GAME ytd.
SHOOTS MAN.
tsk.
i have to do forfeit now.
last year when i played this game i WON ok.
but nvm.
ill b a good-loser.
oh oh.
i shall declare that ill die of consuming too much msg.
ate cup noodles for break fast just now.
ill die man.
okok.gtg le.missingyouhoney.iloveyouforever.
;10:31 PM.x
gosh
had chem todae.
like shit man.
i can do the whole paper one lor.
but i see the time wrongly.
its like i thought it ends at 0930 bt actualy its 0915.
so i took my time to do the paper.
then i cudn finish on time.had to leave some blank. ka-bishhhh.
ok la.
gtg for night studies with qiqi le.
dunno what to write anw.missing you alot.wish i can have in my arms now.
;3:53 PM.x
20050926
but to you.I LOVE YOU.always.
;12:17 AM.x
20050923
gosh it hurts man.
slept frm like 12pm- 2pm.
after that wanted to go home
but decided to go for hmt instead.
well.
exams coming soon.
realli have to study extra hard man.
and i wanna PASS ENGLISH.
i dun wanna be expelled frm sch.
shit man.
im like so scared.
damn.
i dunno la.
hope that end of years wun b that tough ba.
aniwaes.
i dunno what to sae le.
oh one more thing.
this is specially for my dearest DADDY.
I LOVE YOU ALOT DADDY.
even though i miss mummy. . . i still miss you too.
dun merajuk le la.
-sends u flying kisses-
;10:10 PM.x
20050918
hope u love the treat.
went to school for geog on sat.
decided to pon amaths and went out to eat with becky instead.
went to eat at mobil.
went to westmall lib and read some books.
then went home.
oh did i mention?
becky looks chio in her frindster pic.
the chatting one.
haha.
im gonna cut my hair with my 2 bestties tmr.
im sick of everything that happen.
been sick the past few days too.
have no idea y.
ate some food at aunts house on friday
and felt like throwing up barely a minute after that.
on sat after i went home.
i felt sick all over i couldn get out of bed.
forced myself out to my relatives house.
havent been well today.
my head still hurts.
but i dun care.
like uhm who ever cares.
what use to be a secret is not a secret anymore.
Y CANT THEY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
i need my privacy.
i need my own space.
and its not for irritating species from outer space like all of you to intrude.
just GO AWAY FROM ME!
just leave me alone.
ive nothing else to write.
;10:05 PM.x
she never thank me for things ive done for her
instead she accuse of being insincere
she buys things for them readily
but never did she do that for me
she fulfils their every request
but not mine
even if she does
she does it with much anger
[he]
he bought for them presents
on their birthdays
but never in the years i lived have i remembered
of him buying me anything
when i do well for my exams
he never do care
he takes notice of my every mistakes but never theirs
he apologises everytime he's too harsh with her
but leave me alone whenever i cry out of fear
[they]
they are younger than me
they never did really treat me as what they are suppose to.
im blamed for the mistakes they do
"u set the example.they follow."
im sick of hearing this.
sometimes i wonder if all of them really care.
really care about me
the tears ive shed
she never took notice
the things i do to please them
is never enough
kisses, hugs from both of you?
never have i ever felt them
not even the slightest closeness
am i that insignificant in your lives?
im so sick of being with all of them
having to live each and everyday of my life
in a place that suffocates me
is this what they call home?
is this MY home?
i guess at the end of the day
ill still love all of them.
i still HAVE to.
whether being forced or not.
;9:30 PM.x
20050904
and the rivers run into the sea
till the end of time forever
ure the only love i need
in my life ure all that matters
in my eyes the only truth i see.
when my hopes and dreams are shattered.
ure the one who sees me through.
when i found you i was blessed
ill never leave you i need you
imagine me without you
i'd be lost and so confused
i woudnt last a day
id be afraid without you there to see me through.
imagine me without you
lord u know its just impossible.
because of you its all brand new
my lfe is now worthwhile
imagine me without you.
when u caught me i was falling
your love lifted me back onto my feet
it was like u heard my calling
and u rise to set me free
when i found you i was blessed
ill never leave you i need you
imagine me without you
i'd be lost and so confused
i woudnt last a day
id be afraid without you there to see me through.
imagine me without you
lord u know its just impossible.
because of you its all brand new
my lfe is now worthwhile
imagine me without you.iloveyou.thanksforbeingthereformealways.ureminenowandforever.ulightupmylife.ureallthatmatters now.nothingcanseparatemefromyouanymore.illholdontoyou.illneverletgo.illneverleaveyou.promisemeuwunleavemetoo?
;11:14 PM.x
firstly WELCOME BACK JEAN!
was like waiting for her on friday at 1005.
and she onli came at like 1020.
but anw yeah.
glad that she's back.
well.
ytd was unit-hike.
screwd up the time.
was like 30 minutes ahead of time.
but well.
still ended on time.a lil early.
but not too early ba.
i realise how diff it is too give instructions to like 40++ using own voice.
becks wanted to push me into the pond and was suggesting it to sum of the sec2s too!
hilarious.
but well i still survived.
u love me too much becks!
i think the duck walk was funnayy,
but had to cut it short.
and pt kept telling me abt her island.
and her house that can b seen from the bridge.
heh.
dumb woman.
but wells.
the whole outing was fun.
EXCEPT for sum part ba.
elaboration not needed.
after that went town.
ate at lj w pt and becks.
trees jean and yakks were eating at yoshi.
i cannot eat there ma
dun dare.
had a fun time eating.
i think im crazy.
was like waiting for pt to finish eating for ard 1hr.
darn long.
and becks got ashes in her food.
luckily it can still be eaten.
then took neo prints.
walked ard in heeren.
got scolded twice by the security.
#1-for sitting down in hmv and blocking others which i apparently did not.was just tying my shoelace la.IDIOT.
#2-while trying to pics with becky in HMV TOO!screw that security guard man.cant even take pics meh?y?jealous that i din take pic with u izzit?
after that sent jean to ps .
figured that i wasn invited.
so left with becks and join trees yakks pt in the arcade.
lalala.then went home to join relatives at bbq.
MORE FUN MANN!
had alot of food but din eat much.
talked on the phone alot!
slept over at aunts place.
wanted to like play with my sis and cousin.
but i ended up falling asleep first.
was too tired.
i dunno wad to write le.heh.
byee.
;10:11 PM.x
wishlist
star bracelet.
a new wallet
new pencilbox
new bag.
engraved ring.
*to be with you forever
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